Sunday, November 24, 2019

The history of slavery

This is going to be triggering so PLEASE do NOT read if this brings flashbacks of any sorts !

Probably sounds more like a rant !

I am finishing my research paper on Frederick Douglass . I have been writing my research paper since June of 2019 . I am specifically doing a research on how and what his role was in helping and advocating for black soldiers to to fight in The Civil War .  I am not going to go into specifics however I have discovered  a lot that is NOT covered in history books and probably never will .

In this post I will use the terms " Enslaved  black people " or " enslaved slaves " because my Social Studies Professor who is black and a few of my classmates who are also black agreed that these above mentioned terms are the most appropriate .

Throughout my research and mini history lessons we had in class , we talked about the history of racism and slavery . It blows my mind how slavery was even invented !

During discussions I realized that although history books talk about slavery , people do not realize that slavery still exists !

In the time of our for fathers who fought for our independents slavery already existed .

Slavery actually started even before Christopher Columbus showed up . He did take Native Americans as slaves however slavery is a European concept that has existed even in European countries !


Black people were sold and taken to European countries until at some point a new law was created to stop buying slaves .

In America slavery started with Columbus using Native people as slaves until The Native people were freed either by dying from diseases that actually Europeans brought to America or by in human treatment by slave owners .

Later Colonist took Irish people then Chinese people ( I cannot remember who first ) .

Some of our for fathers are horrible and in human people !

Later they enslaved people from parts of Africa . In The 1700's at some point there was a divide in the colonies and slavery was stopped . Unfortunately some of the Confederate States and some parts of The North had issues and disagreed with not having slaves .

I am not going to go into this whole process . I did plenty of research about the Civil War and how Abe Lincoln was encouraged or forced actually to allow black men to be recruited .

Slavery was over to a degree and even after The Emancipation Proclamation and The Amendment of the thirteenth which also took forever because the Confederate states did not want to abolish slavery but forced to agree so they could join The Union .

Now in 2019 people think that slavery is history but that is not true .

African Americans or black people ( I know I will never get the term right )
are free now but not totally . The truth is unfortunately that anybody who is a marginalized person / in The system is a slave .

When I say " System " I mean anybody who receives Government assistants .

Anybody who receives Food stamps , SSI or SSDI or other Government assistants is a slave because said people have to rely on The Government for support .

Some States cut your SSDI /SSI when you get married or you completely loose said benefits . The same with Food stamps . In the first years of slavery you were treated like a less human or child and had to ask for permission to get married and even have a child . The Government is not necessarily expecting you to ask for their permission however if you do get married your benefits get cut in half or you loose them completely . If you have a kid you still can loose benefits because your new spouse can be considered earning enough money .

You have to prove your disability even when it seems obvious and if you choose to try working part time because it is important to your mental health The Government gives you AGAIN a hard time and keeps even a closer eye on you !

You are just trying to live your life !

You are trying to become a productive member of society . Then again The Government has their two cents .

A Government that really cares about its Citizens should just want you to be happy and do what is right to be successful members of society but that is not the reality . It has to be on their terms .


I am also suspecting that The for fathers came up with the idea of racism to have an excuse for slavery .

I am pretty sure that we barely had a Government official who had blond hair and blue eyes but that is maybe just me not seeing the whole picture or something .

I have also noticed at least in Massachusetts that if you look like you are a part of a marginalized group then it is beyond peoples comprehension if you have plans for the future like going to College or actually have a decent job . I have seen this attitude especially from some people who work in a Government capacity AND said people actually could also have been part of a marginalized group themselves BEFORE they start working for the Government which is VERY odd to say the least .

Seriously though , We have disability activism BECAUSE we still have slavery just in a different form .

In a world without slavery , people do not have to worry about starting a family or just having a life and worrying if future plans will affect their much needed benefits that they need literally to survive !

The original idea of slavery was to punish enslaved people who are not able to perform or be productive . Now they use this same mentality to punish people who are in the system . You need permission to get medications to survive , you are not allowed to have more than a certain amount on your account because otherwise you are considered " Not qualified or over qualified for  benefits "

It is a hell of a cycle .

A free of slavery society is supposed to have the freedom to do whatever they want with their lives without asking The Government " For their blessing "

A free of slavery society should not have to ask for fair housing laws ,

Reasonable accommodations ,
Fight disability discrimination

And other issues that I cannot think of .

( My rant of 2019 )


Thank you


Dusya




Sunday, October 27, 2019

Politicians are scary because they are human !

Some people while growing up or when they grow up they look at politicians and think that politicians are perfect meaning they are smart and went to the BEST schools and ALWAYS know what they are talking about . And some people grow up thinking that politicians are all the above mentioned but then have a so called " Wake up call " and realize that politicians are just like you and me . Then there are people who know all along that politicians are just like you and me .

I have no intention whatsoever to talk about the current President . That would be a whole other ball game rant for another blog post .

However i do want to talk about a recent experience I had during a two day training at my local Government building . It was incredibly profound and eye opening for me !

This past week I took a two day class called " Citizens Legislative Seminar " ( CLS ) .

The first day was orientation and hearing from Clerks and a few Senators AND The Senate President personally !

Each shared their story and how they handle their differences between Republicans and Democrats and how they discuss issues about bills that need to be voted on .

I realize we ( Attendees of this seminar ) only had a glimpse at a few Senators and some were Republicans and some were Democrats and they actually were quite respectful with each other and one Republican shared how he would respectfully discuss a bill he did not approve of with a democrat who was very supportive and wanted to understand the perspective of said Senator . His exact words were " Listen , tell me . What am I missing here ? What am I not seeing ?"

After a break we did a simulation of testifying about the bill on plastic bags ( The ban of plastic bags ) with a Senator who wanted to show us how this testifying process works .


On the next day we did a more interesting simulation . Each attendee was a Senator of their town and each of us had the responsibility to ask questions , share a bill that should be amended ( Changed or improved ) or share concerns about said amendment .

The subject again was the bill about plastic bags .

I was obviously The Senator of my town " Representing the people of my town "

The Senate President was presiding over this bill hearing and we had to Adress The Senate President when we wanted to speak up . A few " Senators " came up with an Amendment for the plastic bag bill . Changes they wanted to see get passed . At The Senate hearing , it was interesting to listen to each person and their suggestions .

One Senator was very focused on banning plastic bags altogether and instead offering reusable bags that could be purchased and had to be washable ( Possibly in a wash machine ) .

A Senator presented a change of the bill in way that could possibly improve the environment and help people who are elderly / Low income / Fixed income / Disabled .

Another Senator suggested that people should collect bottles and cans and use that money to pay for plastic bags or any grocery bag that is being given out at stores .

Again another Senator was far more focused on having washable renewable bags . ( seemed to be her main priority )

I decided to speak up and share my concerns about the ban in itself and the washable bags and about collecting bottles and cans .

I shared my concern by explaining that although there are many people in my state and my city who get a stable paycheck and do not have to worry much about spending money on a grocery bag , But also there are a lot of elderly and disabled people and low income families who cannot afford to pay for a bag . Some people need to buy a snack to digest easier their medication and cannot afford to pay additionally for a bag   ( Sorry for TMI ! ) and possibly need a plastic bag because they cannot hold something in their hand due to a disability and other . Some people are not able to carry a bag with them all the time again due to mobility issues and other and although there are people who collect bottles and cans again NOT everybody is able to do such .

Thankfully another " Senator "suggested that people on foodstamps or other government assistants should be excempt from paying for a  grocery bag .

A lot of people were in favor of improving the bill for said population thankfully and the bill was " passed " with said improvements .

Of course there were a couple who were opposed for their own reasons .

It was definetely an interesting experience and The Senate President wanted us to see what had just transpired and wanted us to understand that actual Senators could talk about a bill the exact same way we all did .

Any of us could be a Senator and disagree or agree with a bill that could actually benefit everybody or or only a certain population based upon our personal beliefs or interests .

The BEST part of this entire experience was that we were all respectful of each other and did not insult or degrade each other after this meeting .

I honesty wish all State Representatives and Senators could be civil /Respectful .

Senators can be jerks and or good people just like us .



Thank you for reading


Dusya




Friday, August 30, 2019

America's History of Slavery

TRIGGER WARNING !

I have been working on a research paper about The 54th and 55th Massachusetts Infantry Regiment and and came to a HORRENDOUS conclusion .

I apologize in advance for what I am about to say and I realize it sounds despicable . I do not have though a better way to describe this !

I will not talk about America in general because this country has ALWAYS been divided on various issues .

I will say though that some of The  American Culture has a STRANGE LOVE relationship to slavery .

If you think that slavery is over then unfortunately I have to say based upon my continuing research , Slavery is still continuing in The U.S ! It is just called differently or people view it differently .

I am not going to look at all my notes but I assure you that you can find lots of information from credible sources on this issue . And I apologize as well for not remembering " What country was first "

I will start by saying that America was build on slavery by those who discovered America  , By The people who came first to this continent .


First Natives were taken as slaves till they fought back so well that The first people had to give up .

Then after a century Irish and Chinese people immigrated to America between 1820-1860 and some or a lot of Chinese and Irish immigrants were enslaved .

Also black people were bought by The American Government from a part of Africa ( I think Nigeria )
and sold and enslaved . 

I am using The term " Enslaved because many of my classmates who are black said that " Enslaved felt more appropriate "

At some point slave owners lost interest in Chinese or Irish people ( Not going into detail here )
and had black slaves ( For a lack of better wording )

I am well familiar with how despicable black people , Families and children were treated . I still shudder when i think about my research paper and books I read recently from eye witnesses !

I know from stories I heard about my family in Europe that people were NEVER enslaved in my family nor their friends . But I still want to apologize for all that your families went through !


I am getting off track here .

According to my research Slavery was first partly ended with The Emancipation Proclamation by Abe Lincoln and then there was The Thirteenth Amendment that had to be ratified by The former Confederate States who still to this day are NOT happy with The change in The constitution .

Sorry for The rant !

Anyways , Although slavery of black people was abolished in 1867 and black people were free and allowed to be citizens , The war was not over because there was still a need to fight for black peoples rights to have basic human rights . MLK .J. and Rosa parks .

What I see now though is that although there are more rights to a degree , Slavery is STILL existing !

Many black people still have to struggle in some parts of America to just own a house despite no legal issue because of The Government .

What I also see is that The new form of slavery is being on Government Assistance .

If you are on SSI or SSDI , You are in The system and The Government decides how much money you receive , How much food stamps you receive ( Even with children ) and if you dare to get a job they will decide if you can receive some government assistance while holding a part time job .

You have to answer for every step you take .

Even if you are ar as clean as snow or do not have a criminal record , They are just looking for a way to punish you !

You are not allowed to save money because they watch your bank account and if you have an IRA or some kind of savings then they want to know how you got The money and where from and cut their payments .

Also you cannot really live where you want unless you have family then can help out .


Also they make an issue if you are disabled and have a kid supposedly because they are concerned about The child's welfare .

You have to free yourself from government assistants with a lot of luck and support  !

I know there are more whys how they keep you trapped , But cannot remember .


I am done with my official rant / Done venting


Thank you


Dusya






Friday, June 21, 2019

PTSD , Depression and suicide hotlines

Before I start , I want to clarify that I am NOT anti medication or against anti depressants or other equivalent medication !

I am working a lot with depression right now . people who have depression and I myself have experienced depression every once in a while .

A couple of years ago I was living with a room mate . I had two different room mates actually within 3 years .  I am not saying that I am perfect by all means . I do want to point out that both room mates harassed me to The degree that I stayed away from our apartment as much as possible and only was home when it was time for bed . Both my room mates had issues . I have no idea about my first room mate , but my second room mate was on medication . I know that because she tried to poison me twice by mixing one of her medications into my soda bottles . I never complained or said anything because I could not prove it and I could not afford to go to The police to investigate without an obvious evidence .
Anyways , I was in a living situation and could not move out to a better place . due to my finances that was not an option . My only refugee or place where i could go to breath when I was stressed out from this room mate nonsense was either doing my volunteering or hanging out at a shelter where people keep to themselves a lot .

I had once a psychiatrist who subscribed to me anti depressants . I never took them though because i did not see The point in taking said medication when I was feeling panic due to my room mate situation .  Yes , I felt depressed and I felt worthless . I sensed that my room mate did not tolerate me breathing in her presence . I called the suicide hotline and I called the Samaritin to have somebody to talk to . 30 minutes tops The time they were willing to listen to me .

I am not sharing this for sympathy . I am sharing to tell you that I KNOW what depression is .

People in today's society think that if somebody is depressed / PTSD or other " It is just depression "

From a medical perspective I know that there are two causes for depression . One cause is something in the brain that is clicking right ( For a lack of better words) , the other one is that we as a society are causing depression as well .

I am not saying EVERYBODY I know is causing depression , I am talking about our society .

You know The saying " you have no idea what a particular person is going through " ?
Let me go deeper . When you ignore a person during a conversation , When you ignore a person who maybe needs a seat on The bus , Train or other , When you are driving fast and ignoring The street lights although you really have no reason to rush and a pedestrian is not able to cross the street because you ignore that person , When a person is ignored in any setting where they are trying to get services , all these scenarios make a person feel not wanted .

When you are in The system and have to rely on government assistance , You feel hopeless because of all The restrictions . Whatever State you live in , There is a restriction as to how much you are allowed to receive in foods tamps  ( I cannot get used to the term " snap benefits sorry ! ), SSI or SSDI . They put sometimes unreasonable restrictions on to you and sometimes they will give you more assistance and feels like a lottery win . When you have to manage living / Having fun despite all these challenges it is hard ! It is not impossible to travel / have fun , You have to get creative though .

Todays society is thought that if you feel lonely or depressed then it is because you have mental illness .

Sorry but here are too many grey areas ! 

If you are being abused in any shape or form or being neglected , You are not making it up ! it is really happening to you ! You are developing mental illness from from struggling for survival . You develop anxiety , PTSD / Trauma and I assure you it is NOT IN YOUR HEAD !

If you are being treated like you are just a number without human dignity then you are not making this up . It is really happening to you !

And if you actually have a good life and have mental health issues , I do respect that . I simply do not respect The fact that everybody gets anti depressant thrown in their mouth because of their mental health issues .

I wish doctors would get to the bottom of depression ( what is causing it ? ) and not just give you medicine .  The psychiatrist who prescribed anti depressant knew about my room mate situation and gave me said medication so that I " forget my situation " or something like that .

Although I was never forced to take said medication , It makes me cringe that as soon as you have depression or  other then you instantly get prescribed meds.

I repeat ; Depression is NOT THAT SIMPLE !

I personally cannot do much about this because I am not part of The psychiatric society or whatever they are called . But because I do work in holistic medicine I know for a fact that there are different approaches and medication is NOT The only way .

I am done with my rant .


Thank you


Dusya


Monday, May 27, 2019

Being a survivor , Survivor Guilt And History

TRIGGER WARNING !

We have survivors from all walks of life .

We have people who survived The Holocaust .

We have people who survived different kinds of wars

We have people who survived a crash whether it is a car crash, Plane crash , train or other kind of vehicle crash .

We have people who survived bombings !

We have people who survived domestic violence and or rape .

And even if certain people did not have to survive a war , they witnessed though every part of history whether it is The great depression or other historical events .

I believe that all these people survived / witnessed important world events so that they could share with us ( Future generation ) what they saw so that we learn from their experiences and NOT repeat again !

It is actually quite easy to verify witness and or survivor information because many of these people wrote dairies and or simply an autobiography .

Unfortunately many people in our society have no interest in listening and rather accuse these people of being liars because they survived or witness The events they talk about .

I will not agree or disagree with the statement that said witnesses or survivors are MAYBE making up a story to be famous , But if you really think that a particular person is lying , it is really easy to fact check the information because guess what ! we have now The " WWW " so google their name or go to The library and check their name . It is really that simple .

The sad part is that some of these people who are actually survivors turn to " Survivor guilt " because people point at them for being alive .

Some popular quotes ;

" if that really happened to you , How did you survive and they are all dead ?!"

" If you were really abused and or beaten , why did you not leave earlier ?!"

" If you really had all these experiences , why are you not rich by now ?! You should be a millionaire !"

Or " You know all this because of your past experiences so you should be making money and giving all those assholes a piece of your mind !"


As IF it is that simple ( Facepalm ) !

And never mind that people are ignoring The stories of survivors and already changing history by removing literature with stories from people who actually lived during a particular time period .

The present generation is already mocking people who lived through the holocaust and or immigrated to The U.S because of persecution in their countries  .

" You are lying or you are just bitter about something "

"You cannot be telling The truth because our history books tell a different story "


Well , Obviously The Department of Education or whoever is responsible for our history books has no interest in asking our senior citizens "what happened ?"

 The next thing that happens is that some people who are survivors develop survivors guilt and some even commit suicide .

 OR those who survived the holocaust for instance die due to age or disease and then society has The excuse that history books describe so and so because those who lived it are not with us anymore .

Why are books about Helen Keller or biographies from Laura Ingalls  Wilder removed or The book about the Mocking bird ? ( Figurativley asking )

Yes , they have words in them that were quite common in those days and INEXCUSABLE in our society . That is true , but they are HISTORY .

If you remove these books then there will be no evidence about slavery and other and history can repeat itself !

It is really not that hard to teach children respect and how to show respect

it is really not that hard to have a talk with a kid or kids and say "you see these words in this book ? yes people in The past use these words but they are disrespectful and condescending and derogatory ! We know better and do NOT ever use these terms anymore because EVERYBODY deserves to be treated with dignity and respect !"


Thank you


Dusya



Saturday, May 4, 2019

The term " I am woke "

I am seeing a lot of people use this term which tells me that society has made this term " fashionable " .

I would have ignored and cut people some slack for using this word even when they are using this word in The wrong context ,but after seeing people misusing "woke" and hiding behind this word when they do not want to admit that they are racist , homophobic and or simply assholes . I decided that  I MUST speak up !

First of all , If you google that word you will see that Woke is a political term  of African American origin .

Seconds , It is a SLANG . The actual term is " I am awake "

Just an FYI : I am a member of a few spiritual groups and NOBODY uses The term " Woke "

Also I want to point out that a lot of people will say though that they are woke just because they want to look and sound " Cool"

The truth of The matter is that being awake is not about being "Cool" .

In spiritual groups , Being awake simply means being aware of your surroundings . Being aware of The people you interact with AND most importantly being aware of yourself .

When you are aware of yourself you are aware of your issues . You own your issues . You take responsibility for yourself and your actions .

For example , If you were a racist in The past and something happened in your life that made you realize how dumb or irrational your racist mentality was then you own it . When you are having a conversation with a group of people or just one person and racism happens to come up , You are open and share your experiences and take responsibilities for your actions towards The marginalized group you either attacked verbally or with actions . And you advocate your support for said group by volunteering or donating money to said group .

Also in many spiritual groups , members usually do not say " I am awake " . With that in mind , You know that they are awake because they talk about justice and how communities can and should show support to communities in poverty . They are simply aware of The Government and where The Government is missing innovative ideas and these people simply develop a passion for any marginalized group they feel they want to support .

Many of these people donate money and or time without talking about it really .

They will go to  women's marches , ADA events and or any other event that they know needs as much support as possible .

Also these people who are awake , They will treat you with respect and dignity as you deserve as a human being . They do  not care if YOU are awake . They will value your perspectives and differences . And if they think you are being a jerk , They will still be respectful and respectfully point out where you can learn more about an issue that they think you are being judgmental or hateful about .

These people respect that everybody has faults because NOBODY is perfect .

In these groups nobody cares what your religion is or where you come from . You can be Muslim , Catholic , Jewish , Buddhist or whatever other religion is out there . In these groups you are simply seen as a human being who deserves to be heard and treated with dignity and respect .

If you want to share your religious views and where you are from and about your culture , That is alright as long as each party is being respectful .

For me personally the best part about being around people who attend spiritual groups is that you always learn something new and have " Aha" moments ! You learn a new perspective about different issues .

Some people after attending a spiritual group feel uncomfortable  afterwards because they feel like somebody burst a bubble or belief they had and they do not like it .

If these people get really upset then they will come up with The most appalling accusations because they felt humiliated or insulted although all that happened was that their faults were pointed out .

It is human nature to not want to face where you were mistaken .

And other people find their experience eye opening and inspiring and decide to come again .




Thank you for reading



Dusya


Wednesday, April 17, 2019

Three fires !

First a fire at Notre - Dam , Then Mosque in Jerusalem and if that is not enough, Apso The National museum in Brazil !

This has to stop !

All three buildings are masterpieces !

Only people who hate culture of any kind could accept such distraction !

We NEED culture now more than ever !

We have now young people growing up who are ignorant and lack morals and ethics .

Yes there are thankfully rich people who are offering their money to restore some of these buildings and I am grateful to them . And yes I agree that this money should also be used to pay for food and clothing and stop poverty !

But The point is that The present and future generation is growing ignorant of values .

And who knows, Maybe these generous rich people are not as generous as they seem . Maybe strings are attached .

But these three buildings being on fire tells me that future generations will have no respect for history or culture and eventually even deny anything that is precious to our present and past generations.



Thank you


Dusya